Apologies to my dear brothers and sisters, been cut off blogger for a while and I've been up to my eyeballs in one file research, so I couldn't make it that early. Anyways here is the third part ~~
..Until the time I Met Shadab, an Indian young man living in Singapore. I met him on Youtube, cause I used to post me-singing videos on there. He was only preaching and he came across a heedless girl Subhana’Allah. As he used to tell me that he'd been watching my videos a lot and seen into my eyes the brightness of Imaan. Dont actually know how he had noticed that but he had been so caring and sending me messages frequently saying that music is prohibited in islam and that I have to stop doing this cause it's an affliction (fitna). However, frankly speaking I was like firing back saying that music can not be haram and so on and it's a personal choice, one should not stick his nose into others convictions. But even though, we built together an amazing friendship. We used to recite Qur'aan together, he used to tell me about what islam commitment is like in Singapore and so on, I no doubt didn't know what's islam commitment is but he actually gave me that push to knock up the islamic teachings door. We have been sharing many things up-to-the-minute :)
Alhamdulillah he taught me many things regarding islam even if he's not an arabic native speaker. I must confess that I was ashamed sometimes cause I used to make mistakes while reciting Qur'aan while he never did. Several years between us, but my maturity helped me a lot into making righteous friends all Praise be to Allah. What more can I say about him, yeah, each time he attends scholars gatherings he shares with me what he learnt and each time he goes out for Dawah in outside country he brings out morals and lessons to me. Mashaa'Allah very good Muslim. May Allah grant him Jannah.
Well, there were many reasons that made my faith bolstered. Actually my booster was another friend that I had known for almost 3 years. This one is a morrocan guy living in Malaysia. Not that religious but he has been the first one sending me Qur'aan and he sent me Surah Yusuf. I liked the chapter and the story of our prophet Yusuf peace be upon him big time. It was recited with a soft smooth voice, and especially that the reciter had that amazing cadence which goes up and down according to the events of the story. Subhan'Allah I used to listen to it everyday. Is the chapter I liked most in Qur'aan. Then I had been asking him for more actually. And that is how I started to love Qur'aan.. Kalaamu Rabbi :)
As the companion of Rasulullah Ibnu Mas'üd may Allah be pleased with him, used to kiss the Qur'aan and put it on his eyes and say "Kalaamu Rabbi, Kalaamu Rabbi".. Just brings tears to my eyes each time I remember this. Maa Shaa' Allah :)
However the real booster was a competition that took place in my high school and I've been chosen to do some religious chanties. And there I met one righteous guy, we have been talking up the hijaab. I didn't know him that much but basically the non-virtual contact with him made that scrum soar, Alhamdulillah. I spent like one month in research reading the sayings of the fourth Scholars regarding the islamic veil and then I wouldn't say that I convinced myself but I would say I did make my mind up and surprised everyone and put on hijaab. No one believed me at the beginning and I got teased, the first to do such a thing among the relatives Hamdanlillah. My brother Shadab was very happy when I told him about it, he has been urging me to wear on the veil and he truly wanted me to make it long while ago at that time.
But hey, my hijaab wasn't done at the proper way at first, um would be jeans with some quite long shirts. Anyway, good start ;) I'm cheering myself up!
That was only the first push to flee the so-steeped-in-blind-belief world I was living in.
The push to the Commitment is coming up in few days.. ;)
To Be Continued...
